No longer for you

A friend of mine who shall remain nameless recently got dumped (you know who you are) listening to him talk about it brought back feelings from my past. Of breaking up. Of saying good bye. It inspired this...

I guess it must be over
Over it must be
I guess I was just too blinded by love
That I didn't want to see
That you never really wanted me
Why oh why couldn't I separate
My feeling for you from reality
The reality that we could never be
Together
Forever
Apart is what we are now
Separate
Distant
Is the real reality
I see it now
As clear as a bell
I guess you just can never tell
I thought I could
Look how hard I fell
But that's it, no more
My poor heart is shattered
Like a sheet in the wind it is raw and tattered
I'm empty and used
Cold and abused
I feel nothing anymore
My heart keeps beating
No longer for you

Just Friends

I think that I've messed up
I don't know what to do
You say that you love me
But I just don't believe you

I guessed I just pushed to hard
But can you really blame me?
I've always loved you so
I thought that you could save me

I'm sorry I guess I was wrong
I wont make that mistake again
After all this heartache I give up
Maybe we'll still be friends

Victoria Trip

This weekend, Nicholas my Dad and I went to Victoria to visit my Nana ( Nicholas' GREAT-Nana). I hadn't seen Nana since last June and she hadn't seen Nicholas since last Christmas, so I figured it was time for a trip. What I didn't count on was being caught in a snowstorm! We woke up Sunday morning to a blizzard outside our hotel room! It was crazy! I haven't seen it snow like that in years! So we stayed an extra night, bunking at my Aunts two bedroom appartment in Esquimalt. NOT the most roomy of accomidations let me tell you. Many a time in the 24 hour period we were there, we walked the halls with Nicholas so he could burn off some of his endless energy. I only wish I had 1/2 the energy he does..

We decided at 12:00 noon today that it was time to forge ahead and see how far we could get. We made it home after five..yes five..hours of stressful highway driving. Some people shouldn't be allowed out of their homes when it snows! Ugh! Anywho..me being the genius I am forgot my camera! My Dad did bring his though, and did get a few shots of the snow..although I have to wait for him to e-mail me the pictures. I will post them as soon as I get them. So glad to be home!

The New Begining

One of my best friends recently had a very bad relationship experience. It inspired my to write this. She is such a strong woman who I know will put this behind her.

Setting up the dominos
Just to have them knocked down
All the while, a smile on my face
God forbid I frown
Why can't you see it hurts me
I wish you'd just let go
Why do you pretend you love me
When we both know it's not so
Please just let me be
Don't break my heart again
You had your chance it's over now
I thought you were my friend
I'll say my final goodbye
Tomorrow I will leave
To a place where you cannot hurt me
And at peace I'll finally be
'Good-bye my love, good-bye' I'll cry
As I walk away
Don't you dare stop me this time
For you don't have a say
I am too good for your games
No matter what you think
My heart weighs heavy, it's time to go
Like a scooner it will sink, if I don't
On my journy I must go
By myself, my head held high
I am my own person now
I am free of your lies.

Dixie Chicks' Lullaby

I love love love this song!! Highly recommend it to anyone with a sappy heart...like myself.. :)
Here are the lyrics. So beautiful!

Lullaby

They didn't have you where I come from
Never knew the best was yet to come
Life began when I saw your face
And I hear your laugh like a serenade

How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough, is forever enough
How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough
Cause I'm never, never giving you up

I slip in bed when you're asleep
To hold you close and feel your breath on me
Tomorrow there'll be so much to do
So tonight I'll drift in a dream with you

How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough, is forever enough
How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough
Cause I'm never, never giving you up

As you wander through this troubled world
In search of all things beautiful
You can close your eyes when you're miles away
And hear my voice like a serenade

How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough, is forever enough
How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough
Cause I'm never, never giving you up

How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough, is forever enough
How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enoughCause I'm never, never giving you up
Is forever enoughCause I'm never, never giving you up

Within Reach

So close
yet so far away
I don't know what to do

It's within my reach
but I can't quite grasp
what it is I want

I reach and I reach
you pull away
it hurts my heart

I wish you'd stay
and hold my hand
and be forever mine

One day perhaps
we'll see the day
until then I wait

You

Thie wind roars
the rain falls hard
and all I think of is you

The fire is warm
the music is soothing
and all I think of is you

The days go by
the weeks turn to months
and all I think of is you

The candle burns
the scent fills the room
and all I think of is you.

Here are some recent pics of the little man for all to enjoy. I can't believe he's 16 months old already!! Time flies!! I'll be sure to post some of out trip to Victoria Next weekend as well.